Before I begin just a quick correction. Last night I was at IHOP not Dennys. They are just about the same thing in my mind except IHOP doesn’t have any old school memories for me.
Anyway, tonight I tried Krispy Kreme. I spent 3.18 and got three dougnuts in addition to my hot chocolate. Not bad considering there is free Wi-Fi there. My only qualm is that the chairs on not comfortable. Despite all that I finished chapter two with some reworkings that caused me to take the story in a different direction than I had originally planned. I just noticed that my chapter countings were off. Chapters 1 and 2 are already posted so here are chapters 3 and 4. Chapter 5 is nearing complition and will be ready tomarrow. I get the feeling that my chapters are really short because I don’t know how to change scenes without starting a new chapter. hmm…
One last sidenote. I think I’m in love with my supporting female character. Shes so awesome.
Without further adue, Voici mon oeuvre en train de se faire!
As Bordin walked home that night he couldn’t help but wonder by what providence he had been granted a companion such as Steekay. Steekay was everything that Bordin was not. It almost made him wonder if this wasn’t some sort of Fight Club styled illusion. Had he just conjured Steekay up in an effort to escape reality and become someone else? Steekay was confident, smooth, good looking and friendly. But he seemed real, in that larger than life kind of way. He wasn’t the guy in the center of attention he, to quote Fight Club, moved â€œthrough the crowdâ€ and was behind the scenes. He was the person that everyone knew but that no one really knew. Whatever he did, he did to perfection and he did it all in a style that said he didn’t care what others thought and everyone envied him for it.
Bordin on the other hand, he was average to a painful extreme that made him wonder why he was alive. He was never a star, people seemed to overlook him because of how average he was. He just blended in with the background where ever he was. He was socially inept and as a result his only friend was his sister, Crimson. They had been drawn close together over the death of their parents.
Their parents, or shall we say Mr. and Mrs. Mineur worked in investment security before their untimely deaths. One day, without warning they simply disappeared. The search for them was more of a manhunt because 41 million US had disappeared with them. At first everyone assumed they had embezzled the money and abandoned their teenage children in favor of a life of pleasure on some island no one could pronounce the name of. This idea was easily rejected and was even offensive to anyone that knew them. They were a happy family. The MO simply didn’t fit. Mr. Mineur was successful and, by all reports, loved his job working with his wife. He was involved with his two children and an avid supporter of any project and dream they had. It was as close as one could picture it, a perfect family with no signs of trouble then one day they up and disappeared. The media was quick to write article after article demonizing these corporate suits as people that â€œabandon their children for riches.â€
One can only imagine the hurt the multi-media onslaught brought to the children who, at 17 and 16 were left parentless and penniless. Time went on and the wounds began to heal. Things weren’t great with the foster family but they were okay; at least the siblings were together and could draw strength from each other. It seemed as if the months would pile into years and cover the wounds but no. Eight months after the disappearance Mr. and Mr.s Mineur were discovered by a fisherman in the bay. They had only had it a few miles and science showed they had been dead for about eight months. The official report said that decomposition had made it impossible to know exactly how they died. Most said they committed suicide after realizing that they couldn’t get away with stealing that much money. The kids had no idea what to believe, the world had been brainwashing them to believe their parents had abandoned them.
Whatever healing had occurred since the couples disappearance was completely wiped away. Bordin felt like someone had ripped his heart out a second time and this time no one could put it back in. If the idea of parental rejection had been hard to swallow the harsh reality that his parents had been weren’t even alive was impossible to deal with. Even though Bordin had been told that his parents rejected him, he still loved them and it was still comforting to know that they were still alive somewhere. Whoever Bordin had been before and whatever he might have accomplished was instantly erased leaving an empty boy who would never be the same. The only person that didn’t abandon him was his sister. Crimson at least was consolable and the already close siblings became even more so.
These thoughts and reflections carried Bordin home. Dusk was just about to arrive when Bordin walked in the door. There she was, Crimson was laying on the kitchen counter of their two bedroom apartment. She had the New York Times open and was reading it upside down laying on her back with her head hanging off the counter. From this angle the only thing Bordin could see where her pajama pants angled just enough to be seen over the news paper and her curly blond hair hanging below.
Bordin certainly knew that his sister was beautiful like a father knows his daughter is beautiful. She had always been stunning, even in high school everyone wanted to date her or be her or at least know her. She had always been popular until her parents died. Then she renounced most of her so-called friends and spent her time with her brother or delving into her studies.
â€œYo, broâ€ she said while turning the newspaper page. She didn’t even look up.
â€œHey Curlsâ€ he responded. Bordin called Crimson Curls when they were little, or rather before their parents died. When they were just toddlers they visited their French Grandmother and she always called Crimson â€œBouclÃ©s D’orâ€ or Goldy locks. Brodin started off by calling his sister â€œD’orâ€ but it sounded too much like door and â€œBouclÃ©eâ€ was just silly so pretty soon the whole family and learned the nick name.
The use of the old nick name did not go unnoticed. Crimson lowered, or rather raised, her newspaper so she could see her brother. She looked at him with a discerning eye and said in the tone you use when you want more information â€œYou’re in a good mood.â€
â€œYeah, well, I had a good and bad dayâ€ he said moving over by his sister and sitting down on the floor leaning on the adjacent wall so they could be at eye level.
â€œI met a new friend. He kept me from getting my ass kicked earlier todayâ€
â€œDoes this mean you’re finally coming out of the closet?â€ Crimson asked with the most hopeful and surprised exaggerated expression she could muster.
â€œaHa!â€ she interrupted. â€œSo, you are in the closet! I knew it!â€
Bordin glared at his sister and said in a mocking tone â€œfine then, forget it, I won’t tell you what happened.â€
â€œOh, don’t be a ninny about it. I tell people you are gay all the time. Otherwise they think its weird for us twenty something siblings to still be living together.â€
â€œDo you think its weird?â€
â€œI think you’re weird but no, I don’t think we’re weird. Anyway, who cares, when are you gonna bring your boyfriend by?â€
â€œI don’t know that I will bring him by. He seems a little too cool, you know the type of guy girls swoon over.
Crimson flipped over onto her stomach and slid her legs through her arms so she could sit down on the floor across from him.
â€œIs that so?â€ she asked a bit intrigued
â€œYeah, I don’t know what I think about him. He’s cool of course but he’s strange in a way. You know that guy that looks like a bum that we saw the other day down by Steve’s Market?â€
â€œOh no!â€ Crimson exclaimed in all seriousness. â€œWhat in the world happened to your neck?!â€ she asked while moving quickly to examine.
â€œI was just getting there. That crazy guy, the one I just mentioned; well, I must have looked at him wrong or something because he just about killed me.â€
â€œHoly crap!â€ Crimson exclaimed in her â€œI’m oh, so your little sisterâ€ tone.
â€œYeah, you took the words right out of my mouth. Well, anyway, one word from this guy-â€
â€œDoes he have a name?â€ she interrupted once again.
â€œYeah, Steekay; so he-â€
â€œSteekay? What the hell kind of name is Steekay?â€
â€œLook who’s talking. It’s not like Crimson is a very common name.â€
â€œYeah but it is a name. I guess you wouldn’t find Steekay weird because he makes your name look normal in comparison.â€
â€œAnywayâ€ he over emphasized, â€œone word from Stee-kay and this tall, haggard wierdo dropped me and walked off.â€
â€œYeah.â€ They both stopped for a minute. Bordin fell into deep thought as he always did and Crimson just watched her brother expectantly. She was waiting for something, a reaction, anything. He didn’t move so she finally asked him â€œWell? How about it, what are we gonna eat tonight? I say we go out to celebrate your new lease on life. I got a flyer for this new Chinese place today, its called Dong Ho’s.â€
Chinese sounded good so they went.
Crimson exchanged her pajama pants for a pair of scrubs and Bordin exchanged his shirt for one with a collar that would hide the marks on his neck.
They ordered and Crimson told the waiter that they were celebrating because Bordin had narrowly escaped death by a miracle. Bordin laughed.
â€œIt was scary but it wasn’t that big of a deal. I mean, I’m here right!â€
The waiter was obviously not that interested or didn’t understand enough english to care because he just walked off.
â€œActually,â€ Bordin started turning back to his sister â€œI think he might help me meet women.â€
â€œWhy because he’s the â€œtype that girls swoon over?â€â€ she quoted/asked him.
â€œNo, he- no way! He’s right there!â€
Crimson spun around in her chair nearly falling out to see a good looking man walk in wearing a red leather jacket and a young super model type looking woman.
â€œWait, that’s him?â€
â€œYeah!â€ Bordin affirmed â€œHey, Steekay! Steekay! Over here!â€ he yelled over.
Steekay looked up and smiled. He parted ways with his girl and came over to the table.
â€œHey kid, Bordin right?â€ Steekay asked nonchalantly. Bordin nodded and Steekay continued â€œHow come you didn’t tell me you were dating such a foxy girl when we met earlier?â€ Steekay leaned over and took Crimsons hand.
â€œI’m Steekay and you are?â€ he asked before kissing her hand.
Crimson just laughed.
â€œHer name is Crimson and she’s actually my sister.â€
â€œOh, greatâ€ Steekay said releasing her hand. â€œListen, this Saturday I’ve got this new band thats going to be great playing. You should come, I’ll get you two free tickets.â€
â€œYeah, uhh, I think I’m all booked upâ€ Crimson lied through her teeth. â€œWhat kind of weirdo still kisses girls hands?â€ she wondered.
â€œBordin? You down?â€
â€œuhh…yeah, sure! Why not!â€ Bordin bubbled with enthusiasm.
â€œGreat, It’s at 1st and Game your ticket will be at roll call. I’ll leave two just in case Blondy changes her mind.
â€œBlondy?â€ Crimson uttered.
â€œGreat, I’ll see you there. Hey, actually why don’t you join us?â€
Crimson glared at her brother. Steekay noticed the tension and looked back at the scantly clad women he left sitting on the other side of the restaurant.
â€œYeah, I would but I’m kinda on a date. I’ll catch you later though right? Saturday?â€
â€œYeah she looks expensive.â€ Crimson let go under her breath.
â€œYeah, I’ll be thereâ€ responded Bordin with a nod of the head.
Steekay returned to his date, already in progress.
â€œWhat was that? Why were you rude?â€ Bordin asked as soon as Steekay was out of earshot.
â€œForget it, he seems like he’s too cool for school. Besides, look at that hussy he is with.â€ she said letting some familial venom go.
â€œWhat do mean? Thats the type of girl I should be dating. You know -â€
â€œI was gonna say classy.â€
Their food had arrived and Crimson went to digging into her lo mien. Chop sticks dove adeptly around her plate but didn’t bring anything off. After a long pause Crimson dropped her chop stick on her plate and looked up at her brother. He had given up on the conversation and started eating.
â€œIt would be good for you to date some more.â€ she finally said. Bordin looked up to acknowledge his sister and she continued â€œOh sorry, I didn’t mean more, I meant at all.â€ After a second they could both laugh again. They seemed like they were fighting but thats just how they got along. Crimson always picked on her older brother and Bordin could just be him self and laugh with her.
The truth was that it really bothered Bordin that Crimson didn’t like Steekay. He seemed like such a class act and yet the only person’s opinion who mattered to him, Crimson’s, was already squared against Steekay.
â€œHey, hey! I’ve dated a bit!â€
â€œOh yeah? Who’d you date?â€ Crimson asked with her cynical smile. Everything was fine and they could resume normal banter.
â€œYou know… uhhh Sarah!â€ said Bordin falling all over his words. This just caused Crimson to burst out in laughter.
â€œSarah?! That was in 3rd grade!â€
â€œYeah well… it takes a long time to get over a relationship!â€ he chuckled back. Sarah was beside her self having trouble breathing by now.
â€œYou, held hands ONCE! You were together for what, a day?â€ she mustered out.
â€œIt’s not like you’ve been dating a lot lately either!â€
Crimson stopped laughing and all of the sudden looked very serious. Bordin looked up from his orange chicken to see tears in his sisters eyes. He knew he had said something wrong because she stood up, grabbed her coat and walked away, up the stairs and right out the front door.
â€œHey wait up!â€ Bordin yelled after his sister He threw some money on the table and ran out after his sister. He followed her for a block trying to get her to stop and talk to him. She finally stopped abruptly on the wide sidewalk and spun around to face him. Her breath fallowed her around as she let out most of the air in her lungs. Bordin thought about the breath raising up to the night time sky. Like a prayer candle sending a message straight to heaven. God would be able to smell her prayer and more so her pain. She was wiping tears from her face and spurted out â€œIts not your fault!â€ Then spun on her heels and kept walking.
She locked her self in her room and started sobbing alone. Bordin sat outside his sisters room waiting for it to stop. He couldn’t stand that he had made his sister cry. The noise finally stopped and for a few seconds Bordin thought she had fallen asleep. The door opened slowly and Crimson started talking-
â€œI’m sorry, I shouldn’t freak out.â€ He pulled his sister down into his arms and let her cry a bit more.
â€œIt’s okay, its not like its your fault, Curly.â€ Bordin wanted to make his sister feel better because nothing was worse then her unhappiness. She had been the only thing keeping him alive all these years. The sure fact that even if the world abandoned him, even if his parents would never say they loved him again he at had his unwaivering sister who would always understand, always listen because she had always been there.
â€œIt’s just that -â€ Crimson said getting her crying under control. â€œAfter Mom and Dad died everything fell apart, you… you fe-â€ she coughed trying to fight the emotion enough to talk. She stopped, sighed, sat up and smiled. â€œI love you Bordin.â€
â€œI love you too.â€ he said confused. She leaned over and gave him a big hug and said goodnight before standing up. She scampered into her room and shut the door behind her. Bordin just sat their wondering why his sister was insane. He did love her very much and was worried about her. He replayed the conversation they were having before she blew up and stormed out sobbing.
Silence filled their little apartment and Bordin couldn’t get up. He just sat on the cold floor opposite his sisters door and started up at her door. She had a poster of the band Europe stuck right in the middle. Instantly the song â€œThe Final Countdownâ€ came to his mind and he started humming it trying to digest the evenings events. He was doing a lot of that lately, digesting. As he replayed the song in his head decided to write off his sister’s reaction to stress. She was in an advanced medical program at NYU and was coming to the very end of her studies. She was waiting to hear back from an internship she wanted at the morgue. Apparently studying dead people was a little less risky than working on the living. Normally she laughed and joked and seemed to be very light minded but all this stress must have finally built up in her.
He thought about staying there until morning as some sort of protest. The desire to have his masochistic revenge was over ruled by a long day coming to a close. Bordin wanted to sleep in his bed and recover from the busy day. He stood slowly from his position and groaned as his back stretched. Twenty-three years he’d been on this earth and he had felt old for a long time. Anyway, he had work in the morning and if he tried to contemplate anything else tonight it would only bring him closer to blowing up like Crimson had.
He stumbled into his room and threw him self on top of his bed. He didn’t bother changing or brushing his teeth, â€œToday has been very taxingâ€ he excused him self. Laying there on his stomach he started to sleep and as his breathing gave way to a rhythmic beat he began to dream.
Bordin sat up. He was back in Mrs. Lasek’s class at the beginning of his senior year. Strange though, no one else was there. Bordin looked around the abandoned class room, each wooden desk was like a tombstone for their prior occupants. The silence was about as heavy as his head as he tried to make out what was written on the board. His eyes strained to see when a quite sound made its way past his muffled ears.
Someone was laughing.
Bordin stood up his shoulders weighed the world each and as he started to take steps he had the impression that his feet were made of sand bags. It began to poor rain inside the room and the light were obscured by storm clouds. He stumbled towards the blackboard trying to turn through the green haze that covered the doorway. As he approached the doorway the laughter turned to sobbing and finally screaming that could barley be heard above the loud rain. Just as he reached the edge of the room and caught a glimpse of a gi-
The door slammed shut. He fell and landed on his back. He strained his neck away from the door to look at something else that had caught his attention. The windows were closed and outside the sky was red. Clouds twirled within themselves turning and shimmering shades of red. The dull red light reflected off the windows and played on the linoleum floors. Another storm was coming bigger and blacker than the one he was already in.
Suddenly something turned the rain off and something scampered past the door way. Bordin sat up as quickly as he could. It was like moving through water and he was sitting at the bottom of the pool. The door was open now and he moved towards the hall way. He couldn’t see past the first foot because there was crimson smoke and light blocking his vision. He stepped into the fog and found him self sitting in the passenger seat of his Dad’s X5. His heart leaped in his chest expecting to see his Dad driving but instead there was nothing. His child sister screamed in the back seat and Bordin turned his head in time to see that they were falling into the river. They hit the water and it was as if a concussion grenade went off not a foot away from the occupants. He struggled to pull the seatbelt free and turned to get his sister to help but she was gone. When he turned again there was a shark swimming towards the sinking SUV. For a moment it seemed not to noticed him. It turned, showing its profile before winking. Bordin breathed as much of a sign of relief as someone thats drowning in a dream can. But then the shark turned and started to ram the vehicle. He bit the tires popping them and spitting out the shreds. He was laughing as he slammed his gigantic body against the metal frame before turning and leaping mouth open towards Bordin. He was going to come right through the windshield and there was nothing that could be done. Bordin couldn’t even bring his arms up in defense because they wouldn’t obey his mind and as the shark dove into the windshield Bordin sat up in bed.
Cold sweat dripped down his face and he stood up. It was just a dream. He resolved to calm his nerves with a drink of water and went out his door into the hall. His sisters door was open and as he waked past he noticed that everything was gone inside. He looked up and she was laying on the kitchen floor bleeding. He rushed forward and the hallway seemed to stretch out before him. She began to scream and he couldn’t move. Something was stopping him and he turned to free him self. He wasn’t running anymore and all that stopped him was a man in a trench coat. He strained to see the strangers face and then a knife flashed into view. Before Bordin could even process what was happening it was in his throat sticking straight out. He fell back and the knife handle pointed to heaven.
In a flash Bordin was back in bed. He laid there immobile for fear. He looked at the clock by his bed. 2:35 am. He felt his pulse to make sure he was really awake this time. He was. Now, he turned on the light and pulled a book out from his night stand. He turned an sat on the side of his bed. He stared longingly at the picture inside of his old dream journal. His parents smiled back at him. It was a picture of the whole family taken just a few weeks before the disappearance. Their kind faces consoled him and the white suburban house behind them reminded him of better times.
â€œI miss you.â€ He said quietly.